“We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year’s Day.”
― Edith Lovejoy Pierce
It is the beginning of 2014. The first day and 365 (or more) new memories to create. Possibly the start of a new chapter in our lives. Like every year, we resolve to make the new year a little bit better than the last. Today, I reflect back and see where I’ll make the changes that hopefully I can implement in 2014.
I realize that whatever I do on New Year’s Day, I do less of it in the entire year. Call it a psychological thing or just something that’s in my head. But, it has proven itself time and time again. This time, unfortunately, I cried. I cried because of how much losing that one person still hurts. I don’t want to get into a self-pitying mode so I’ll sum this bit up. I realized I was washing away the pain, flushing it out of my system, once and for all. I am closing a chapter in my life and opening a new page, and writing a new chapter. Call it a fresh start. Call it the beginning of making new memories. So, I don’t take the crying as a bad omen, rather a good one. I take it as me finally accepting what the situation is and starting out afresh. Even if the chapter is closed, I believe that somewhere, some way, people enter the new chapters in a new light. Simple example is this one friend of mine, who I dated a couple of years ago, came back into the last chapter of 2013. He’s now firmly part of the new chapter in my life. As more than just a friend, as my support and pillar. It took us time, but we eventually, with effort at both ends have built a solid friendship that I hold dear to my heart. So there you go. I don’t give up. 🙂
I don’t want to give another sermon on how we should make 2014 special, and how we need to let the previous year go away – no. You’ve heard many people go on about it. Here’s what I do have to say though. If you held back on doing anything in 2013, DO IT THIS YEAR. If you wanted to fall in love but were afraid of your heart being broken – do it. If the heart is meant to break, it will. But, it will mend. It will heal. It will come back, stronger than ever. You just have to believe. Don’t let love pass you by. It is a beautiful feeling and it is something that you should cherish.
If you wanted to start a new project but were hesitant – DO IT. The rewards of working hard and achieving something on your own is a feeling that is indescribable. It is not just the satisfaction of successfully doing something, it is that feeling of euphoria that you did it, you took a leap of faith and came out on top. This is what I want to do in 2014. It is called the Cupcake Project – the few of you who I’ve thrown the idea out to, know how important this is to me, so I hopefully can do this in 2014. And I want to. I held back for many years, but I know that I’m going to take that leap of faith to achieve (even a small part of it) it this year.
Making amends. Ah, something we all want to do – but egos end up destroying relationships. I know that it takes time and effort and also a lot of trust to rebuild something that we’ve broken. But, as I promised myself, I would be a bit more optimistic this year and rebuild a couple of very very precious relationships that have been damaged and stained. Wipe the slate clean and start over you know? So if you want to do that too – take a leap of faith and try. At the most, you’ll get a negative response, but hey, YOU tried. It doesn’t hurt to let your ego drop and say “I’m sorry.” Give it a try. I promise, it does make you feel just a bit better.
2014 – will it make me a better human? Only if I try. Only if I want to become a better person. Do I? Yes. I do. I still want to fall in love, I still want to take up new challenges, but moreover, I still want to do everything I held back on doing in the last year. Maybe I’ll lose my way at some point, but I know I’ll find it back. I know I’ll stay grounded. I know, with the love and support from my parents I’ll be okay. No, I’ll be more than okay.
So my wish for you – live, laugh, love. Don’t hold back. Take a risk. Take a leap of faith. Mend relationships. Make someone smile. Fall in love. Hug someone. Smile. Have faith. Believe in yourself. And the most important – LIVE. Happy 2014. I hope this is your best year, yet.