Oh my goodness, I survived another year! Okay, that shouldn’t come as a huge surprise considering I say that at the end of every year. But seriously, this year has been such a revelation on so many levels, that I’m actually wondering how I managed it all. (No, really.)
So – I got a job – of course you knew that. It sort of made me super happy, but it came with a warning that I’d probably have to give up my social life. Great. Just what I needed. However, that was a HUGE blessing in disguise, really. Don’t look at me as if I’ve lost my marbles – at least hear me out – you’ll see what I mean.
First things first, I had to step back from the writing. I know, I know, you’re as devastated as I am. But honestly, I had to give myself a bit of breathing room and figure out how my writing was going to fit into the exhausting hours of my new job. Many chats with my bossman (Most of you know him as Bhalla) led to him extending his full support with the agreement that I could start up bright and fresh in the New Year. WHO would have thought he’d be that great (truth be told, he totally is.)?
With the promise of me starting off bright and fresh next year, I’ve been regrouping and refocusing on how I want to tackle the writing next year. I’ve decided and realized (more importantly) that I need to throw across ideas that I’ve actually thought about and have an outline for – at least then I’m not running around like a headless chicken. So that’s the most important thing I need to think about along with actually sitting down and writing with full gusto. This also means I’d have to haul ass and get myself to events/gigs next year, which means I’m really going to have to figure out this prioritizing and balancing my life business, soon.
I didn’t attend my favorite festival this year. Shocker, right? Considering that it impacted me in such a wonderful way in 2014, I was certain that I’d be there this year – but something was amiss. I guess most people started showing their true colors and the facade’s began to fall off, and for some reason egos were inflated like hot-air balloons. Oh, did I mention, freeloaders began to freeload like they’ve never freeloaded in their life? Unbelievable. And they’re not even there to do any kind of media work – just free drinks, and be the typical groupies that everyone calls a waste of space. Seriously, do something constructive would you rather than beg for freebies?
Then there’s the oneupmanship. Like give it a rest man. You’re good at what you do, I’m good at what I do, so let’s leave it at that. Why go the extra mile, and bitch out people or try and prove who is better? Do your own thing, be happy, and keep your business to yourself, seriously. It was one of the top reasons I didn’t want to attend, for just everyone saying how much better they are than the rest, shut up already.
Anyway, the rest of the year has been a whirlwind of sorts, really. I’ve met some crazy, and wonderful people. I’ve made some of my friendships stronger, and let go of people who were negative, and toxic. Yes, the usual.
The biggest change however, is my parents looking at me with even more pride than they did before. Simply because, I decided to make my life better, and make myself happier and work on being a better person. Who cares if my social life took a hit, I realized most people won’t even care about your existence and if you do any good, it’s only your nearest and dearest ones that do. So as long as you’re happy being around them, the rest don’t really matter.
I really hope the last 2 days go well for everyone. Honestly I’ve seen better days, but it’s nothing that cannot be dealt with. I’ve got my family, my loved ones, my dear friends, and people that still think about me… It doesn’t get any better than that.
Happy 2016 everyone, much love to you all, and I hope you and I cross paths somewhere :-).
For 2015, this is my last post.
Shilpa, out. xxx